Tuesday

My Laptop Died and I Don’t Care (The Trough of Disillusionment?)


12-13-11

At 50 I can now state (even if I was to live to see 100 years) that I spent the first 1/3 of my life as a technophile.  Since that time I’ve lived through a few tough lessons that have brought me a long way from the wide-eyed kid that watched the moon landings on ‘one of them new color TV’s’…  The most important lessons are to distinguish a ‘want’ from a ‘need’ (yet to permit myself a modest number of ‘wants’), that life is a miracle (and therefore sacred), that I am interconnected (to my family, friends, coworkers, society, environment, God), and that there is no ‘better life’ through technology (in fact all technology is a double-edged sword) or politics (please – don’t get me started).

So, a few days ago I was obliged to end my long association with my laptop.  This was the vehicle with which I earned my Masters Degree – so I feel like I should take it out into the backyard and give it a proper burial or something.  Thus I am now ‘sans’ a computer, and after feeling weird and unconnected for an hour or so, I started to feel angry at myself for feeling weird.  …Fact is we (and the rest of the neighborhood) are awash in electronic devices that connect with the internet (are we still even calling it that?).  Hey – I’m making this blog entry aren’t I?

For some time now, my wife and I have been contemplating what sort of devise we should plan to replace our aging laptops with, and so I should rejoice at the opportunity to rush right out and pick up a slick new replacement machine – or maybe not…  In observance of the holiday season, let me elaborate on the bit about interconnectedness and technology…  As a kid I was stunned by the Apollo moon landings and fed on optimistic science fiction storied about successfully overcoming the challenges that would face us in the future (usually through technological means), and Super Hero comics.  The only exception to this mantra was the classic War of the Worlds in which a simple virus saved the day (but of course that story was the product of a different age).  These and other forces active in my childhood lead me to the assumption that progress (manifested in increasingly sophisticated technology) was linier, inevitable and destined to just keep making life better and better for everyone.

My first disillusionment came with the Viet Nam war.  The world’s most sophisticated technology could not defeat a determined foe who was better adapted to the existing natural environment wherein the conflict took place.  Other notable pieces included the fuel crisis of the 1970’s (my first eye-witness to fist fights between adults) and ‘super-germs’ that have survived to become impervious to over-used antibiotics, add in a couple of exploding Space Shuttles, a Chernobyl, a Bhopal, and a friend or two lost flying helicopters for the Army and you get a world class recipe for a technology cynic.  Science Fiction was feeling the burn-out just like me, evidenced by the replacement of Star Trek with X-Files and The Day the Earth Stood Still with Soylent Green.  By my late thirties I was intentionally placing myself about two to three years behind the technology wave, to avoid getting caught with ‘Beta’ in a VHS world (if you’ve read this far you probably know what that means).  Since adopting this tactic, my only personal misstep has been a digital ‘super eight’ video camera.

By now, I look through narrow, suspicious eyes at new technology automatically – wondering what (not if) the downside is.  Smart phones are intrusive (and two of mine have mysteriously been sucked out of the window of vehicles which I was operating on freeways), the medium of the solitary ‘computer-geek’ is now the superhighway of ‘social media’ and ‘virtual life’ (and the ‘geeks’ are those few who opt out), our pockets can now be picked from Nigeria (but more likely our retirement savings will just become someone’s golden parachute right here at home), and most of this digital golden age is fueled by batteries that require mining in environmentally delicate, politically unstable parts of our shrinking world.  I could go on and on, but I won’t (Merry Christmas!).

Surely technology has made us more interconnected.  Interconnected with the people we care about and choose to interact with, as well as the worst elements of society.  …Interconnected with our own inner demons as well.  Lives are ruined by identity theft, on-line gambling and pornography addictions, cyber-bullying and wasted by hours and hours of gaming which amounts to nothing at all…  Too often, this is the content that our ‘content providers’ have brought us in this ‘golden age of information’.  I’m not taking the ‘high-road’ here, I have had my scraps with some of these myself, but I think I have reached the ‘mother of all’ troughs of disillusionment.  No, I’m not feeling scrooge-like because of the holidays, nor am I even feeling depressed…  Please let me explain…  A long, long time ago I was a young Industrial Design student, and some of the classes that I took exposed me to concepts like ‘appropriate technology’, and technology development curves.  I remember one that subdivided the phases of the development of specific technologies into distinct phases of archaic, classical, baroque and rococo (archaic – emerging understanding, classic – basic technology understood and innovation resulting in dramatic improvements, baroque – technology understood but innovation increasingly expensive and  having diminished results when implemented, rococo – technology understood but very expensive innovations now actually degrading the original functionality).

Another blast from my past is something called a ‘hype-cycle’ which works in five phases;
1.      "Technology Trigger" — Or breakthrough, product launch or other event that generates significant press and interest.
2.      "Peak of Inflated Expectations" — In the next phase, a frenzy of publicity typically generates over-enthusiasm and unrealistic expectations. There may be some successful applications of a technology, but there are typically more failures.
3.      "Trough of Disillusionment" — Technologies enter the "trough of disillusionment" because they fail to meet expectations and quickly become unfashionable. Consequently, the press usually abandons the topic and the technology.
4.      "Slope of Enlightenment" — Although the press may have stopped covering the technology, some businesses continue through the "slope of enlightenment" and experiment to understand the benefits and practical application of the technology.
5.      "Plateau of Productivity" — A technology reaches the "plateau of productivity" as the benefits of it become widely demonstrated and accepted. The technology becomes increasingly stable and evolves in second and third generations. The final height of the plateau varies according to whether the technology is broadly applicable or benefits only a niche market.


This hype-cycle is usually encountered in marketing and advertizing – the phases being defined by how much hype the press or the pop-culture buzz (…Do they call that ‘tweeting’ now?) is giving the technology.  All these curves were graphically represented by normal distribution curves.  In the case of the hype cycle, I’ve definitely reached the point where I feel that the technology has failed to meet expectations.  Placing myself at an estimated two to three years behind the newest tech offerings, I definitely operate technology that has been abandoned by popular culture.  …But perhaps this is more a rant against the ‘content providers’ of our age rather than the technology itself.  The content delivered by most of these slick high-tech systems is often unimaginative and tiresome – sometimes corrosive and destructive.  Where they are of value – they are really of tremendous value (instant communication, GIS Mapping, weather analysis, timely news from everywhere).

At this point I might add through anecdotal observation that I observe few technologies that are not abandoned long before they make it through to the plateau of productivity.  Those things that do are often iconic in that they are not looked upon as being especially ‘cool’, but neither are they despised because they have proven so indispensible and valuable (think iron and ironing board or a door knob, or scotch tape).  Vehicles are machines that I might argue are by definition; of above average value (both financially and operationally).  Therefore over time (with many miss-steps along the way) they tend to fall into this category (think Boeing 707 or DC-3, Ford Model T or Corvette, a sailboat or a submarine) and everyone (young and old, man and woman) knows their appearance on almost a subconscious level.

Of these icons, the sailboat is by far the oldest.  Arguably the sailboat, followed by the magnetic compass and the chariot are the oldest machines of any significant complexity devised by human kind (depending upon whether one chooses to include the bow and arrow or not). It is my belief that boats (and in particular sailboats) have embedded themselves into the collective subconscious, with symbolic meaning dating back to pre-historic times.  Not that I'm given to flights of mysticism, but I am saying that this device has empowered humans since that time and has therefore come to be iconic in our subconsciousness.  Also I would not be much of a mariner or pilot if I didn't have a couple minor superstitious quirks aboard.


P.S. Full Moon this last Weekend (Saturday 12-10-11) - last one in this year...

Saturday

Procrastination – Right on Schedule


10-22-11


Some people that I associate with have been described by mutual acquaintances as being “moody”.  Some people that I have met describe themselves as being moody.  I have never worn this moniker (at least that I know of) but perhaps I deserve to.  It has been a while since I have done any work on , and my rational mind will immediately send out a memo (internal and external) that we’ve been busy readying the rental property in Southern California for a new set of tenants (along with the temporary reduction of income that such a transition constitutes), and that last week we were on vacation up in the Pacific Northwest.  The truth of the matter is that even before these events I was experiencing a low level of energy and motivation towards my project.  It’s charming to talk of Mercury Retrogrades, or Solar conjunction with Saturn (yea I know all about that stuff mostly cause’ I’m an amateur astronomer and I pay attention to the moon out of old habits related to tides surfing and flying NVG missions in the Army).  But I feel that the explanation is neither as practical as the right side of my brain wants it to be, or as mystical as what the planets are up to these last few months...

Talking about a project is the easy part, and it’s what Americans do best.  Consider our government which rules on the philosophy that if something is filibustered long enough that somebody else will have to deal with it…  Most people I know are also pretty good at using their electronic devices to plan out how their projects should go in a perfect world.  This isn’t a sin, (…fail to plan, plan to fail…) but it is a laboratory exercise, and the real world does not typically acknowledge the theoretical validity, nor appreciate the effort that is invested in human planning.  Slightly harder (but still pretty easy cause’ most people receive a level of gratification from spending money, and confuse shopping with creativity) is acquiring all the equipment needed for a project.  Probably two thirds of all major projects make it to step one of their owner’s plan – and then die as jagged reality descends upon pretty concept.

I can at least claim to have completed all but the final chapter (last batch of steps in the plan) with my project to restore this boat.  She’s all ready to receive a new coat of pain, and then reassembly).  This fact already qualifies me as a “doer” and a “Man of Action”, far more credible (and potentially dangerous) that most.  I know, I know, I am on the hook for the ongoing maintenance of this craft.  So why my waning energy and interest at this late stage of the game?  Certainly it has made me more vulnerable to domestic accusations that Sigrun is actually a bottomless money pit.  If she were standing ready right now, there would be a couple of emotionally charged conversations that would never have happened at our place.

All this should have me worried and chasing phantoms through the dark corridors of doubt, but I don’t get that feeling at all.  I think my security comes from something I read somewhere years ago...

“Mountains should be climbed with as little effort as possible and without desire. The reality of your own nature should determine the speed. If you become restless, speed up. If you become winded, slow down. You climb the mountain in an equilibrium between restlessness and exhaustion. Then, when you are no longer thinking ahead, each footstep isn't just a means to an an end but a unique event in itself. This leaf has jagged edges. This rock looks loose. From this place the snow is less visible, even though closer. These are things you should notice anyway. To live only for some future goal is shallow. It’s the sides of the mountain that sustain life, not the top. Here's where things grow.”

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Mechanics, Robert M. Pirsig

Since my high school days it has been evident to me that sailboats are all about the rapidly vanishing art of the journey (the destination often being of lesser importance).  This period of what modern homo-urbanus would describe as procrastination may be some deeper preparation for a transition between chapters in the story of Sigrun.  Perhaps this a lingering over a point in the process tantamount to “climbing a mountain in an equilibrium between restlessness and exhaustion.”  Perhaps there is something here that I “should notice anyway.”

“…A boat demands investment from us, and I don’t mean financial investment.  Every boat presents a challenge; that’s what makes it seem almost alive.  Without care, boats die – and a dying or dead boat is, at the very least, heart wrenching.  The more time we give to a boat, the more it thrives – and the strange part is – so do we.  They open us to their own rhythms and to those of the water that they carry us over.”

Designer & Client, Antonio Dias


Well, certainly since my last writing, the northern hemisphere has tilted well into autumn which comes on faster and with more drama than in regions even slightly further from the ocean.  Thick coastal fog, spectacularly colored deciduous leaves, an increasing frequency of bigger waves down the hill all testify of this and speak tot he rhythm of the water that Mr. Diaz refers to.  Interestingly the term deciduous has deeper meaning than simply the group of tree species know as hardwoods.  Literally it means “with the tendency to fall off at maturity.”  As I mentioned, I’m pretty far along in the process of readying Sigrun for the ocean, and perhaps there is a metaphor here connected to the change of season.  ...A falling off of productivity when completion (or maturity) comes in sight...   If Mr. Pirsig and Mr. Dias are correct, than peaks and valleys of productivity are normal when undertaking a big project.

...You want more circumstantial evidence that I’m actually talking sense?

1 To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up [that which is] planted; 3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. 9 What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth? 10 I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.”

King James Bible , Ecclesiastes Chpt. 3

Photos? Yea - O.K. here's a couple photos of some new equipment...



On the left is our newest crew-member - Luna.  The picture on the right I take to be a sign indicating divine endorsement of this project, even though the rain kept me from getting much of anything done on that day.


P.S. New Moon this Wednesday at 12:56 Pacific time, Jupiter has been prominent in the Eastern sky these last few mornings...

Thursday

The Tyranny of Time and Distance

07-14-11


"Oh, father of the four winds, fill my sails, across the sea of years,
...With no provision but an open face, along the straits of fear."

                                                      Led Zeppelin


Problem; It is an observable fact that many of the surfers, long distance bicycle riders, and competitive sailors that I meet are both older and more capable than myself.



Hypothesis; Age is only a metric and does not necessarily determine what is and is not possible for an individual to accomplish.  My kids are 'Millennials" - part of the social media, digital generation who were not alive before the internet.  To virtually all of there generation, an undertaking such as the STP is the stuff of professional athletes and beyond the capabilities of ordinary mortals.  To my wife and I the question is; can we do in our 50's the same sorts of things we could do in our 20's and 30's?


Procedure; While continuing the slow, careful removal of all fittings from the fiberglass hull of 
Sigrun, we found discretionary time to test the hypothesis by engaging in the Seattle to Portland (STP) double century (200 mile) bike tour this month as a family.  In order to test the afore mentioned hypothesis on the broadest possible sample base, we determined that the whole family should attempt this goal including our (just barely) teenagers, all the way up to yours truly who is looking at the big-five oh.


Results; With a healthy dose of support from family and friends all from the just-barely teen to the 50 yr old geezer finished the tour just fine.  We didn't set any land world speed records (although possibly a new record for the length of time to complete and STP), but that was never our intent.  For the kids, this undertaking was   hard to imagine when we first resolved to do it, and in doing it they are confronted with inner strength and capability that they did not know they possessed.  For me it is proof that 'age' is (at least to a large extent) a psychological fallacy that an increasingly dysfunctional civilization attempts to foist upon us...  You know, the whole "forever young", "my generation", cult of youth thing.


As I stick around this world - over time I find myself questioning more and more of the presumptions that seem ubiquitous in our culture.  At first it was 'doomsday' statistics from the 1970's that assumed that the rate of occurance of something would not change in the future and would thereby send civilization blazing off into apocalypse.  More and more I develop my own tests of these presumptions and find them to be at best - gross oversimplifications and at worse - simply wrong.  This is unfortunate because with our media and communications technology does a really effective job at shaping popular perception (or even personal perception if you let it).


Conclusion;  My kids are stronger and capable of much more than they have been led to understand in the past.  My wife and I are still very capable of undertaking 200 mile bike rides as we enter out 50's (and there were plenty of riders that were older than we).  I also have arrived at the realization that insomuch as the reality of these understandings was hypothetical - and is now demonstrated fact, that this was in essence a creative act... Creating facts out of concepts.




Recommendations; Undertaking took considerable time and energy that could have pushed closer to completion by now, but the creative nature of it merits inclusion in this stream of thoughts and blog ramblings.  Now, armed with what we've learned, we are back to our other creative pursuits. My recommendations; kill your TV, question authority, and go build a boat...

Sailboat Striptease

06-23-11

As I explore the deepest meanings of the old Japanese proverb that states; “Work expands to fill the available time”, I am at the same time shocked and gratified by findings ancillary to my preparations to paint my sea craft.  Much can happen to an old sailboat in 45 years and who knows how many owners.  Bolts that have been glassed over and must be drilled out to remove, fittings that were masked off and left in place for the last two paint-jobs, deck hardware mounted with common steel fasteners are all part of the soiree.

My shock comes from seeing what some sailors will tolerate on their sea craft, my gratification comes from the finding and eliminating of this stuff.  Putting any vehicle (from a child’s bike up to an aircraft) right is rewarding work in itself, and so I do not couch this as a complaint.  The whole intent of this undertaking was to produce a craft that is capable of handling conditions in the Monterey Bay.  Obviously what’s good enough for fair weather sailing in inland waters such as San Francisco bay (where this vessel last resided) is not good enough.  I do not believe anyone will be entertained by pictures of mismatched or badly installed fittings, so I am including a couple of pictures of the old, scrappy, pine running-boards and the mahogany replacements that I have been lavishing many coats of varnish upon, and the pagan looking detailing that I did on the tiller for now…
Meanwhile, out in our bay local Marine Biologists and Whale Watchers are in a state of commotion over the extent of this year’s krill ‘bloom’.  Monterey Bay has always been one of the best places in the world to see marine mammals, in terms of both cetaceans (whales) and pinnipeds (seals, sealions), as well as sea otters.  With the Krill population experiencing a sharp increase, the Whales are expected to come around in numbers all summer long for the fine dining.  Five species of dolphins, grey whales, humpback whales, blue whales, orcas, minke whales and, on rare occasions, sperm whales can all be found in the bay.  Early summer (now-ish) is a good time to encounter the biggest of the big; the blue whales.  This species can be 100’ long and weight 200 tones.

Sigrun is 20’ long and weighs about 1800 lbs…  Perhaps it is also a good time for a small sailboat to be on shore getting a fresh paint job.

P.S. The moon entered the last quarter for this cycle this morning at about 0448 Pacific time.  The Summer solstice was Tuesday (06-21-11)